The wasp diaries, part 15

I wonder if I'm starting to suffer from some sort of Stockholm Syndrome.  The longer you live here with me, the more I start to feel sorry for your dark fate.  How can I be both the prisoner and the executioner?  Oh, wasp, please die of natural causes in your sleep.  Really soon.  So I don't have to add your blood to my bloodguilt for your 33 kin, slain in 2011.