Saturday, March 30, 2024

March Goes Out Like a Lion: Not Again, Introversion, and Trying Not to be Miette

 
Look at all the lovely sunlight and shapes!  Especially bright because of all the snow the sky just dumped on us over the last couple of days.  #It'sProudOfItself

I honestly have no idea what my hair is doing in the back.  #IHopeIt'sHavingFun

#SomeDays

#OhMemories #SweetSummerChildItWasNotTwoWeeks #OverAYearWithoutAHug

#NotToBragButIStillFeelLikeNappingButThanksActivityTracker

#IsItADuck #IsItADragonWithASerpentineHeadAndScales #No! #It'sALamb
There are apparently places on the internet that celebrate weird Easter lamb cakes.  Which is what cued me to what this actually was when I saw it.  Who knew?


I like groups of friends, possibly partially for this reason.


Yes, not sure why the polysyllabic word is the only one I can reach sometimes.

I was convinced this was a dragon army inexplicably and delightfully on sale at the Ukranian Bakery down the street.  Serpentine heads!  Scales!  #EatADragon

#We'llFindOut!

#True

#ClearlyPlottingSomething

#HumorKeepsMeGoing!


Yeah, more work stuff.  I have been reflecting.  I'm still mired in some significant negativity and uncertainty about what I should want and what I should do next.  And I wonder if I am overdramatically overreacting.  Like Miette from the meme.

Just because I didn't win a game I didn't know I was playing because my leaders were sabotaging me, do I really feel like nothing I have ever done at work matters or is appreciated?  Yes.  Do I know how unreasonable that is?  Yes.  Do I still feel it?  Yes.  A little.



But, while I am trying to be self-aware, I think it's more likely my introversion and that feeling of betrayal that is crippling my confidence and willingness to re-connect.  I'm just feeling wounded and raw and lost, and I have to get through feeling that before I can make constructive choices.  I just have to hang on until then.


#WorkingOnIt